Seeing Stars

Do you ever make plans and then never get them done because SOMETHING always gets in the way? Whether it's going to the beach but its raining, or you need to pack to move but ran out of tape, or how about celebrate the Fourth of July and fall flat, and I mean flat, on your face breaking, your nose and teeth? Yea. Well that last one happened to me this year. Water balloons and booze and slippery sidewalks should have screamed DANGER!! But we laugh in the face of danger right? "Hahahaha!" Well guess who is laughing now. That's right. Danger is cackling so hard tears are falling, while I got stuck dazed and seeing stars.

After my ER visit

After the fall, all I could see was blood on concrete and I could hear a lot of concern and feet running. I was given an ice compress which quickly became saturated with disgustingness then rushed into my dad's truck with my husband and mom by my side. The ER waiting room gave me the time to calm my breathing, feel my broken teeth, and promptly freak out again. Once I got back to the exam room I actually stayed calm. X-rays were ordered and then we had to schedule a follow up with a specialist.

That appointment on Monday was fun. And by fun, just imagine being told that you need to have your first EVER surgery which includes being put under, which you have never EVER done before to have braces put on your mouth and your broken nose set and packed. Yea, time for this claustrophobic, control freak to panic again. I got through it though. I survived. Thank God and thanks to my awesome hubby who held my hand all the way through. Now I'm traveling to Nebraska from Florida with lovely black eyes and a stylish cast on my nose. 

A week has passed

That's right. All this happened right before the big family road trip half way across country. The good news is I don't have to worry about getting fat while eating gross fast food for the 1400 mile journey. I'm busy eating (or should I say drinking) soup, drinking juices, and sucking down those little baby food pouches (which are actually quite tasty with their random combinations of veggies and fruit). Although, I will admit the doughnuts the kids ate this morning looked WAY more DELICIOUS!!

 I have a new appointment with a new specialist scheduled for the first Tuesday in Nebraska. Hopefully, they can further correct my bite (because FOOD!) and they will say my nose is healing beautifully (because who wants the doctor to say your nose is jacked up!?) I am a teensy bit nervous they will be telling me more work will need to be done. I know my teeth will need some corrective procedures and I am NOT looking forward to those. But, I refuse to be negative (for long). Positivity can take you a LONG way and I will use it to get as far as I can.

So far our family road trip hasn't been too bad. The kiddos 

have been excellent. Can we get a big thank you to the road trip heavens for portable DVD players? And who knows, a post may show up later about tips in traveling with little ones (I discovered some fun ways to pass the time).

As for now, during this brief moment of quiet from the back seat, I will be enjoying a book from my lovely sister's audible account. Who knew audiobooks could actually be enjoyable and sometimes preferred?!

Clean Slate

I think a large part inside of me, the creative ambitious part, really just wants to cut the crap and get back to the basics. 

I watch too much TV (rather Netflix), play too long online (smartphones are evil), and sit around procrastinating way more than I ought.

I am starting to crave and seek out a simpler and much more productive existence. I want less chaos in my head and more calm. Lets face it, social media and television really do create a sizable amount of noise and negativity in our heads. I'm tired of negativity. I even deleted Facebook from my phone so the debating wouldn’t get me down. 

A fresh start is swiftly approaching my family, and I am welcoming it with open arms. We will be in a new place with new opportunities. Yes, it is a smidgen scary but with a dose of bravery and a whole crap load of positivity, I am excited about this new adventure. Honestly, I have never really been so ambitious before. I don’t really have a set path to follow and never really have. So I am putting a smile on my face and just moving forward. I have a list of wants and an idea of how to acquire them. The plan is to cut the noise out while adding more music, to read words that inspire my imagination, and to strengthen my body to see what it is really capable of. Yesterday, the kids and I even joined my sis and her kiddos by turning off the social media and television noise for a bit and exploring a little piece of heaven on Earth; the best used bookstore in the world and the free night at the local museum! A little less noise, a little more beauty, and a whole lot of quality time! It was a perfect day to help wrap up my year in Florida!

Have you ever needed to wipe away negativity and begin again, whether is was just a bad day or maybe a chaotic year? How did it go? Do you have any advice for someone who needs to add a little positivity to their routine? 

Hello Old Friend

Its been a while since I have written anything. There has always been something getting in the way until I just forgot that I loved to write. I love to write about life, politics, exercise, crafts, make believe, and of course, love. 

My Love

I started this blog to motivate me to keep writing but that lasted all of two seconds before I stopped. In my defense, my computer crashed and being financially challenged didn't really allow for my computer to get fixed or replaced very swiftly. In-between my old computer crashing and my current moment of inspiration, life happened. Darn that thing called life, always getting in the way when you are just trying to live it…

My Life

Anyway, life is changing, like it tends to do, and I have been guided back to writing. I even started cleaning out the old cobwebs in the blog. Maybe I will start using it for some motivation again. But I kind of enjoy the idea of not worrying about what my writing looks like but rather what is says. That's the problem with today, well, one of the many. Everything has to look good. And if it doesn’t? What then? Why does it matter what a blog looks like if the content rocks? So, when cleaning up the blog and changing things around, I went from bright and busy to clean, fresh. Its time to focus on the words, on getting back to the things that matter.

Like me. I matter. Well, in my world, I matter. I am a mom, and often times that becomes a defining factor in a woman’s life. Something beautiful happens when you have gone through months of pregnancy, hours of exhausting labor, and painfully give birth to a bowling ball. Something sweeps over you and you switch from being an independent fashionista with a career dream, musical preferences, and good hygiene, to a mom. One word. “Mom.” Your world shifts, along with your priorities and focus. All that matters is your child(ren) is happy and healthy. If that means I choose to sleep instead of shower during my free moment then so be it. I wouldn't trade being a mom for the world. Baby snuggles, middle of the night doctor trips, Tball practices, and snotty kisses; its simply magic. However, as my kiddos get older and my experience grows, I understand that I don’t have to describe myself in one word. I don’t have to be just mom. It can be like my preschool teacher said (or, you know, my son’s teacher), I can be whatever I want to be. Sure I am about six times older than I was then and time is not on my side. But screw you time! I don’t need you to tell me I can't do something just because I”m getting older. Since when does creativity have an age limit? Oh that's right, it doesn’t!

So here I am, taking my son’s teacher’s encouragement (even though she never intended it to apply to me) and I am going to start adding adjectives to my description. Starting from scratch, with a fresh clean template. My story continues growing.

Not going to lie...

 I don't have much to tell you all! Yesterday was a beautiful day; sunny and warm! Lil man and I had the truck, so we ventured out to our favorite Target! His favorite purchases were his Cars bubble bath, and an Easter bucket he picked out in the dollar section. Mommy's favorite purchases also came from the dollar section but were things for Miss Vivie's nursery :)

On the way out, both Hunter and Mommy got a little treat!



He definitely enjoyed his "special milk" of a cream based mocha frap, while I enjoyed the real thing!!

After our treat, Hunter enjoyed some play time in the backyard while I quickly threw dinner together in the crockpot! Then it was off to my doctor appointment to check on lil miss Vivie! Everything is a-okay! After picking up the hubby at work we enjoyed the rest of the day upgrading our poor old phones to cool new ones (I finally have an iPhone WOOT WOOT! - although still not the fanciest version).

All in all, yesterday was the best day I have had in a while! Even though not a whole lot happened, I wasn't stressed about anything and really just enjoyed my day with my family! Usually there is something always in the back of my mind that I am worrying about, but not yesterday!

Too bad today is not yesterday, its chilly and more stressful (afterall I have to work today) day! And I don't get a chance at another peaceful, enjoyable day until Tuesday... Oh well, at least I still have the memories! 

Its been a minute

So, to completely understand my plans for today you need a little back story on this past week...

These past few days have been a bit crazy for me! While most people were ending their work week, mine was just starting. I worked Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. For a girl who hasn't worked in a long time, this schedule wore. me. out. (which may be why I havent written in almost a week) !!! I work in a cafe (one I'm sure a lot of you know of - I'm not saying the name because thats how people get in triouble!!) and I am on my feet the entire time!! Saturday and Sunday that was 8 hours each (I'm rounding up) of feet to floor time with one of those days an entire college swim team coming in for food! Needless to say, I am a wee bit achy!

Now for my plans for my day off... the house is a mess. Dishes and laundry need to be done. Vacuuming and probably mopping could be useful. And the master bathroom could use a scrub down...But.. Thats all going to wait until tomorrow! Because this mama is going to play with her lil man and relax the entire day!! The only chore I will do is grocery shopping because I want to make a yummy home cooked meal tonight (which due to pregnancy and work hasn't been happening much)!

Enjoy your day and loved ones, and relax a little if you can! Days are short so you might as well enjoy some of them!!   

there's nothing like a boy and his dogs

The last two days have been way too pretty to be stuck inside all day. So, while I started on dishes and straightening some stuff, I opened some windows, along with our back door, and turned on some music. When I had finished up loading the dishwasher, I peeked at my boy outside and found him in his own world with a dump truck, some hot wheels, and his dogs!!

PS. ignore my dirty back doors and weeds! the weather has been too gross lately to clean up outside :)

~~~Enjoy your day and your loved ones~~~

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smile, its contagious

     Its that time of year again. Yup, the one where people give up chocolate, soda, or some other vice for 40 days, but rarely pay attention to the reason why they are giving it up. I admit, I was one such person for the longest time. It wasn't until having a child that I became more spiritual. After years of trying to give up sweets, failing miserably, and learning nothing from it, I decided to change things up a bit.

     Last year, I didnt give up anything. Instead, I focused on helping myself grow as an individual, a mother, a wife, and all around, a better human being. I started exercising, played with my little one more often, and spent extra time learning my religion and praying. I grew so much by focusing on myself. I found a little piece of me, a piece that had been missing for quite some time. I found my spirituality.

     So this year, I plan on doing a bit more of the same. I will strive to make healthier decisions and get plenty of sleep. I will tidy up the house a bit more often, and I will once again work on my own, growing spirituality. In doing all this, I will hopefully become a happier person.

And in a weird way, by being a bit selfish, focusing on my own growth, I can help the few people I interact with. Because happy people smile, giving a gift bigger than most realize. A smile gives hope, shows kindness, and reminds people to stop taking things for granted, for there are bigger, better things out there just waiting to be found.

If someone is too tired to give you a smile, leave one of your own, because no one needs a smile as much as those who have none to give. --Rabbi Samson Raphael Hirsc